The Day of Birth

Today I'm 32 years old. I look in the mirror and I don't even know who the guy is starring back at me is.

In my mind and in heaven I'll be forever 19! Great shape, razor smart wits and all around happier person.

Not like the present day all that bad but I'm not in great shape. Lost a lot of my hair and I'm now tied down to responsibility instead of care free guy that came and left like the wind.

Never to say I'm not happy in life but at 19 I could just dance and laff and enjoy life. Now at my age I've seen too much that burdens the soul. Unless large amounts of alcohol are involved

I keep referring to the age of 19 becuz that was the best year of my life (so far).

19th is the day I was born which makes it my golden year or champagne bday. I like to recall it as the golden year. There was the many hot girls, hot sports car and so many parties!

Today's party's are lame as if its all been done before and if anything I get anxiety over large crowds of ppl. If its my bday there's the stress of planning it, wanting others to enjoy it, having half of your friends not make it due to some stoopid reason.

I'm pretty sure 33 will be different I rather surrender to the old age and keep it very low key. Maybe just host a swinger party or something.