Confessions of a Dangerous Mind

The Disclosure Project

2012-01-23T12:20:00.003-05:00

Sounds like a project for couples looking for disclosure about their ex's or something but that's not what the Disclosure Project is about.

It's an official group formed of witness who account for alien life being witnessed here on earth. Either in the shape of UFO's or crashed UFO's all the way to recovering dead alien bodies.

Sounds like a bunch of quakers seeking attention? Nope there actually members of the group who work for the government. Who claim that gov't organizations are aware of alien life and are demanding there gov't official's to step forward and admit to this.

The conspiracy goes we were visited many times way back to the dawning of man (some believe aliens played a role with our species) for whatever reason they decided to leave our planet and sometime just before the creation of the atom bomb we were re-visited this time with a secret meeting between the greys and President Eisenhower. Where he agreed to help keep there knowledge a secret in exchange for alien technology)

Now if this is true or not I don't know I like to believe the universe is a so vastly large or human sized brains cannot comprehend just how big our universe truly is and to think we're the only intelligent life forms out there is a bit naive or ignorant.

Now I would like to add in Psychic Niki. For those of you that don't know this lady she is from the Toronto area as I am and she tends to go on a popular morning radio show called 102.1 FM where she'll come up with some pretty wacky predictions but most of them however odd they are do come true.

On the show she admits to this year being the year where the secret ends. Aliens ships will land in Washington and will make themselves known to man.

Why wait till now? well, its believe there would be a wide state of panic if this were to happen way back in the 50's that we the human race needed time to warm up to this idea.

Hence the popularization of such shows like X-files or Movies like District-9 where if they're all over the media it wouldn't be such a shock if they decide to drop by and hang out one day.

I don't know what to think by it all but in times like these I think of Aliens hanging out in bars like in Total Recall or Star Wars... I can't wait to have a drink with some 3 boobed alien or something along those lines ;)

For those interested in Project Disclosure click HERE

I am

2012-01-23T12:02:00.002-05:00

I am.

That is the answer to the 2 most important questions that is asked.
First: being what is wrong with this planet?
Second: What is right with this planet?

Pretty deep huh?

I just watched a Doc entitled I am it's by the famous Movie director who did Ace Ventura and Bruce Almighty and many other famous comedies.

I can go on to explain the full movie but I'll link ya up with the trailer, but what I did enjoy about the movie is that is goes to talk about the life force that connected with everything.

How one may think that our brain is in charge of our bodies but really it's the heart (centre of your soul)

Have you ever watch a youtube video of some idiot who falls on his face or nut sack and instantly you watch and feel that pain? They explain why.

One scene I really liked is that he's with some scientist who believe our mood / emotions affect the general life force of all living things...

They did this experiment where a pantry dish with yogurt (single cell organism) is hooked to some electrodes and asked the movie director to think of some negative feelings (his agent and his divorce lawyer etc) and instantly as he verbalized what he was thinking you would see the yogurt just drop its electric field.

The documentary was not heavy or depressing rather quite light and enjoyable and I would recommend it to anyone who ever wonders why society is the way it is.

Enjoying Life

2012-01-14T10:00:00.001-05:00

I'm 32 years old... I'm not the young man I use to be. I know I'm not an old man either but I do have to say this is the turning point in life where I have to start watching what I do.

For example I'm a guy that lives life on the go... I don't like to sit at home all the time so I like to be out and about but when hunger hits... I usually relay on fast food for when I'm on the road.

Well after a complete physical with my doctor she said everything checks out but I do seem to have high cholesterol. No more fast food burgers I rather die... LOL

I've been really making so big changes now to ensure I live life for a few more years.

HOWEVER, I don't wanna see myself as a boring fuddy muddy so I've made it a habit to go out and enjoy life to the fullest by doing the things I use to do when I was a care free single guy (well minus the crazy stuff I did with pretty girls)

One of those things was Karaoke!

Let me explain... I don't like American Idol nor do I own my own karaoke machine at home...I use to hit the local bar with friends from work... There was a Karaoke and I would say I'm never going up there... but the more you drink and sing along with all the wonderful songs being played you get this itch to try it.

So I would go up with a friend and sing whatever fun song we could think of, I found it helped me with my shyness.

Yes, I'm a quiet Scorpio that keeps to myself and I can be loud but only when I'm with folks that make me feel comfortable.

Getting up on stage and singing is terrifying until you're so drunk you don't care and suddenly the crack in your voice from being self aware of yourself singing is good and you belt out a good tune you get a roaring applause from strangers at the bar and you even get a few random girls who tell you how much they enjoyed your song and loved you up there singing it (Yes there is Karaoke groupies)

Karaoke can be lots of fun and healthy benefits to your self confidence. Sing Dance Drink and Eat those are the wonderful pleasures in life and best shared with good company

The World of Skyrim

2012-01-14T09:46:00.000-05:00

Yes, I'm a geeky gamer who likes to play all types of games and one of those genre's would be RPG (role playing games for you newbies)

When I first got my Xbox 360 there wasn't a large selection of games to play with the console when it first was released... However there was Oblivion which Skyrim is the sequal to in the series of The Elder Scrolls

Being forced to play the game as the only Xbox 360 game out at the time... I really enjoyed the game... so many quests and I just love leveling up your sneak or your weapon and armor.

It took me a matter of 3 months to finish the game.. and it being the only game I owned at first that's a lot of time.

Skyrim has improved on the series with better graphics and less glitches in the game.
Still very much addicting. Seems all my friends own it and can't get enough of the game.

They were Modern Warfare clan and went out to get MW3 and soon as Skyrim hit the scene they've let there copy of MW3 collect dust.

If you've seen the Youtube video's of Shit Girls Say and Shit Guys Say...

Me and my friend were thinking of doing a Skyrim verison... once it's complete I'll post it on my blog.

If you're reading this post and don't know what Skyrim is all about I say play it if you're a gamer and if you're not... never too late to become a gamer!

Somebody That I Used to Know - Walk off the Earth (Gotye - Cover)

2012-01-14T09:32:00.004-05:00

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This is a popular video going around Youtube and Facebook and The band's name is walk off the earth and if I'm correct (which I usually am) this song originally sung by the band GOTYE. However Walk Off The Earth does a much more interesting cover.

I was at work in the locker room when on my FB I decided to check it out. In walks a co-worker who belongs to a band, (I like to call him rockstar) and he goes on to tell me he knows the band... He toured with them for a bit and hung out with them and considers them friends.

Check out the video if you haven't seen this yet.

The way of the Future

2012-01-09T01:29:00.000-05:00

I've recently switched from using a PC to a Mac, I don't know my way fully around the thing yet but I'm slowly enjoying it. From what I could gather about my iPhone I was willing to give mac computer a try. I look around and thought way there expensive....

Luckily there's the Mac Mini, still expensive but very sweet. The perfect little media centre with a kick ass i7 quad core. I backed up my files from my super old pc and took me 4 nights of backing up folders about 12 hours transfers a night.

Dumping it on the mac took me a total of 30 minutes for everything.

One thing I don't like however is figuring out how to change the font setting to make it work better on your tv with a high resolution.. I googled this and only answer I could find was to lower the resolution? A friend told me to download tinker tools but the pro version is a paid program and free trail version I didn't see anywhere I could change the size.

Kinda feel ripped off their but within time I'll figure it out, until then what I'm really enjoying is the free download program called PLEX.

It's an all in one media hub that will read your digital files accordingly as you install the program (i.e. TV, Movies, Music) but it'll not only just play them. No sir Bob it has a bunch of extra fan added stuff, like when I load up a tv series in the menu before selecting episode I get the theme song to the television show. Movies will have pictures from the movie poster all mixed into the menu before loading.

If you own a mac and play media files I highly recommend it. However if you have a Mac I bet you might know your way around it better than I do.

( seriously does anyone know how to change the font??? )

Learning about my Roots

2011-12-30T23:26:00.000-05:00

So this is Christmas...

2011-12-26T20:47:00.001-05:00

There's not much that I like about Christmas, not to say I'm a Ba humbug but for the longest time the holidays were spent alone for me. Holidays not a good season to spend alone. Even when I started a relationship it took until this year for my significant other to spend it with me... and for me to spend it with her.

We were planning on splitting on a new Smart TV so there was nothing really to open to make matters worse I wanted to hit the mall after work on Friday and buy a a few small things but never got the chance to due to my tire blowing up on me.

First time in 16 yrs of driving that I got a flat... I pulled out the spare and the jack... however I didn't know what to do so I had to call for help... which was a good thing cuz one of my bolts was warped and needed the help to go get some tools.

That same Friday night me and my friends ended up going to the local bar and getting shit faced! The Kerrigan brothers were where it was at.... Smoking a joint out the back and we're talking about sex... and sex with a lady with no legs... that way you just use a shit load of KY Jelly and watch her spin on your dick. (LoL)

Joe the brother I went to school with in elementary school now lives in Ireland and started a comic book business where you can get comics older than 1992 which is rare in Ireland... He told me when we were 6 he was at my house playing Atari, and I gave him a few of my comics from my collection which he still has and open the door to him on comics. Who knew I was so inspiring?

Later on the next day it was Christmas eve, I woke up in my clothes, on the couch at 7am all hung over and did I get to change into my pjs and sleep the rest of my hang over away? Noooo of course not I still have a flat that needs to get fixed.

Come on, it's the holidays I have to get to Toronto, Pickering, Peterborough, and wherever else the wind blows.

Good luck trying to find a tire shop open on Xmas eve... better yet good luck finding one that carries 18 inch tires in stock...

I had to go to 8 different places but I found em and boy were they not cheap. $400 bucks on two tires... well there goes my Christmas gift money.

the rest of the day was a mangled, I was exhausted.... and bitter about the tire... and most of all I miss my father... 5 yrs later and it never feels better... the Holidays are always the worst when you lost someone you close to you.

The next day was Christmas and I spent the day in Pickering visiting my fiance aunt's having turkey dinner. Beautiful dinner then off to Peterborough.

P-town always a good time... lots of food n snacks and did gift exchange where I got this cool graphic novel (best gift of the year)

Now lets get to boxing day where I can buy what I want at discounted rates,

I decided to get a 2nd TV which is essential to a marriage... I'm not gonna get any TV but a Smart TV
ohhhh but the coolness doesn't stop there I'm also gonna be upgrading the computer and getting a Mac Mini Server.

Well I hope the holidays were good for you as it was good for me...
Merry Christmas Happy Holidays and all that!

The Perfect Jeans

2011-12-18T14:35:00.001-05:00

Yes, it's not everyday I get the chance to talk about my wardrobe but as of lately I put to rest the perfect pair of jeans.

The jeans were given to me at least 3 years ago by my sister for Christmas and at first like most clothes given to me as a gift I didn't take to it.

However I dunno as time went by I started wearing the jeans, these jeans were great... They had a nice dark blue print, but what made them perfect was the fit.... just was made for me, perfect relax fit.

I wore these things everywhere.... Clubs, Bars, Work, at home bumming around, I even wore them once to a job interview which I don't recommend but however I did get called back for a 2nd interview!

Sadly like most of my jeans, the crotch area under the zipper wore out and it's like an invisible hole that nobody really see but if anyone did see what an embarrassment.

So I threw em out and now Ive bought like 4 pairs of jeans and not one of em will ever compare to the fit. I've tried Designer and non designer but nope... Why must pants become such a hassle as you get older?

Eating my words

2011-11-20T20:10:00.001-05:00

I actually just wanted to add the birthday went off great! Fun laffs and endless amounts of alcohol and plenty of great friends!

The Day of Birth

2011-11-19T10:40:00.001-05:00

Today I'm 32 years old. I look in the mirror and I don't even know who the guy is starring back at me is.

In my mind and in heaven I'll be forever 19! Great shape, razor smart wits and all around happier person.

Not like the present day all that bad but I'm not in great shape. Lost a lot of my hair and I'm now tied down to responsibility instead of care free guy that came and left like the wind.

Never to say I'm not happy in life but at 19 I could just dance and laff and enjoy life. Now at my age I've seen too much that burdens the soul. Unless large amounts of alcohol are involved

I keep referring to the age of 19 becuz that was the best year of my life (so far).

19th is the day I was born which makes it my golden year or champagne bday. I like to recall it as the golden year. There was the many hot girls, hot sports car and so many parties!

Today's party's are lame as if its all been done before and if anything I get anxiety over large crowds of ppl. If its my bday there's the stress of planning it, wanting others to enjoy it, having half of your friends not make it due to some stoopid reason.

I'm pretty sure 33 will be different I rather surrender to the old age and keep it very low key. Maybe just host a swinger party or something.

No rest for the wicked

2011-11-11T08:48:00.001-05:00

I'm tired in a weird way. If I was exhausted I would have gone back to sleep and not write this post. Instead my mind is fully awake but my body feels drained.

I've noticed I've been sleeping strange as of lately. I tend to go to bed now at midnight and wake up around 7ish

It's not the hours that is strange. It's whenever I sleep in my bed I have the oddest dreams. I wake up literally 10 times or more during the night as I roll over from one side to the next.

It's as if the dead are whispering things to me in my sleep. Warning me? Preparing me for something to come?

I dunno. I just know this isn't normal and been like this since October.

If I spend the night sleeping at my fiancé's place I sleep normal. If we visit her family and stay the night I sleep normal. Just something around my house.

Maybe it's this lack of sleep that has me feeling strange but I know enuff to listen to my gut and something is off key in a strange unexplainable way.

Days of the new

2011-11-05T21:15:00.001-04:00

Not much to write about. Movember been very quite. Yes I did refer to November as movember. I am growing a stash. I've been told I look like Mario and Freddie Mercury.

My bday also this month but I honestly don't care to celebrate anymore.I do enjoy going out with a few friends and having a good time but that what becomes the problem my circle of friends all want to do different things and when you pick what you think is best all people do is complain. At age 32 I think I've done most of everything you can do

Other than that silliness I will add that I've fallen for a new tv series "American Horror Story"

If you haven't seen it. WATCH IT!! It's not gory like Texas Chainsaw Massacre, instead its the perfect blend of characters with the right formula of suspense and creepiness.

Weekly Mantra

2011-10-31T15:58:00.002-04:00

My belief in myself will empower me.

Happy Samhain

2011-10-31T15:57:00.001-04:00

This weekend was a fairly good weekend for the most part. I spent Friday with my friends and we went downtown to this place we call "The Studio" Not really a bar or club but a dance studio where they teach ladies how to pole dance and lap dance. Pole/ Lap dancing girls in costume doing there thing for charity... Sure, why not?

It was fun. I was dressed as a breathalzer which got lots of attention.

Saturday I spent half the day searching for a new costume... I knew what I wanted but thought I could swing into any halloween story to pick it up... man was I wrong... I even got to one store that was blocked off by police for a bomb scare?

At first I thought what a joke... some rival store must have called it in as a prank so the owner is forced to shut down... however 3 devices were found at the scene... Who'd wanna bomb Halloween? more over a halloween store?

The other half of the Saturday night was spent with my friends at a house party up in Brampton. It was fun! best part was that it's super rare to get everyone together all in one place so lots of people I haven't seen in ages were there and good chance to catch up again.

Weekly Mantra

2011-10-22T11:10:00.002-04:00

A positive attitude will attract opportunity.

But the beat goes on... da dum da, da dum da da da da

2011-10-20T19:06:00.002-04:00

Pantera - This Love
Bob Marley - Redemption Song
Marylin Manson - Sweet Dreams
Everlast with Carlo's Santana - Turn your Lights on
Everclear - Santa Monica
Bush - Bonedriven
Metallica - Harvester of Sorrow
Metallica - Battery
Red Hot Chilly Willies - Under the Bridge (needs works but getting there)

What I miss the most about playing guitar vs lets say video games.... I find it so relaxing... I enjoy gaming but when u lose its so frustrating and makes me angry... not guitar... I just keep playing and get lost in it for hours.

Weekly Mantra

2011-10-11T20:16:00.002-04:00

Think twice, and then think again.

(I just wanna add I love these Mantra's and working on them)

Guitar Track

2011-10-11T20:14:00.000-04:00

Somewhere in my head is a door that is hidden to my mind. Behind that door is a knowledge of guitar songs that I've learned to play.

I haven't played in over 10 years and I've recently started to practice again and been learning to play the following:

The American Anthem
Enter Sandman - Metallica
Wherever I may Roam - Metallica
Smoke Under the Water
The Imperial March - Star Wars
The Godfather Theme Song
Justice For All - Metallica
Fade to Black - Metallica
Bush - Glycerine
Bush - Greedy Fly
GnR - Civil War
Metallica - To live is to die (my favorite)
Metallica - Battery
Metallica - Master of Puppets
Stair Way to Heaven (kinda sorta)
Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit
Nirvana - Come as you are
Nirvana - Man who sold the world
The Cranberries - Zombie

That friends is just like one tenth of what I use to know.

Weekly Mantra

2011-10-05T08:14:00.001-04:00

I will be aware of how my actions affect others.

The Turn around

2011-09-24T11:49:00.002-04:00

J-Dawg "Fuck women, they don't have any honor... they weren't raised like men in a wolf pack they were told that they're princess's and the world is here to carter to what they want"

Touche J-Dawg

Jason sings the moody blues

2011-09-24T10:48:00.003-04:00

FUCK,

Today just sucks... I need some sunshine or a vacation or someone so amazing they never seem to fail at making you smile.

Double Life

2011-09-24T10:44:00.000-04:00

Some days I feel as if people should be calling me Bruce Wayne, I honestly feel as if I have a double life at times. We all have different circles that we gravitate to. In my case I have a circle of friends who back in the day were my party people... and women we scored :)

I have other friends who are just geeks... enjoy comics and video games and other things I like... I also have friends who are 20 years older than me and we have dinner parties and chit chat.

I can go on with 20 more examples but I'm not here to define my relationships... more so how different people can bring out different sides of a person. 10 years ago I was a very different person and so much things have changed and shape my life that it's a wonder to see how I got to where I am today.

The things I carry with me is a wonder that nobody really knows about me... most people if I told them wouldn't believe the things I've done yet people walk around oblivious to this part of my life. Makes me feel as if the true me is hidden away and I wear this mask to what people want to see.

We all in our own way wear different masks, however when does it feel like you lost yourself and become something so different you look in the mirror and don't recognize anything about yourself anymore?

At least Bruce Wayne fought crime and made the world a better place as Batman... Can't say I've done the same

Weekly Mantra

2011-09-24T10:31:00.004-04:00

Achievement demands discipline

The Forsaken

2011-09-24T10:29:00.001-04:00

Ever have those days where you wake up and wish you just didn't get out of bed? I'm not having any bouts of depression or it's not the fact that I'm just super busy with things and don't get very much sleep.

I'm tired of the drama that surrounds my wonderful joyish life... Seems to me no matter what I do I'm always upsetting someone. I honestly don't do this maliciously. One example is I make plans with a group of friends and another group of friends will get mad that I'm not spending time with them. Whatever happen to live and let live?

If it was isolated to one specific person I wouldn't mind but it's like family members to a large group of friends? I've been asking myself... Am I a dick? I have my moments but don't we all? I tend to believe it's due to reasons that are outside of my control.

I find that I'm a social person and my company is enjoyed by lots and when I'm not there for whatever reason people tend to get upset that they're being left out or plain old fashion jealously. I find it exhausting to be available for everyone I know.

A few years ago I wouldn't have even cared... now for some reason I feel like the villainous bad guy. I guess it's due to the realization that relationships are the only thing in life that matter in this world. It's what shapes us and defines us and I believe it's what we'll be judged on when our time is done and we meet our maker. Everything else in life is trivial.

When you find out you're upsetting people closes to you in life when you're just trying to live life it's a pretty shitty feeling. I've done my best to approach these people in my life and talk.. I'm in love with the quote... The truth will set you free. However life and people aren't always that simple to go by.

Wednesday morning at work

2011-09-14T12:51:00.001-04:00

Blogspot has changed it's format and upgraded now on iOS so I can blog right off my phone. Perfect for quick blogs on the go.

As you can see I'm in what's known as a 40ft container hand bombing boxes onto pallets by the sku (part code) with a list of hundreds of sku's

It's actually not bad I kinda enjoy it. Simple plus I get the radio and listen to the tunes as the day flys by.

Afterwards when I'm done with the container and I put it away in the warehouse using a forklift.

In the grand scheme of life I'm not really changing the world but I'm happy with just moving around boxes for now.

Weekly Mantra

2011-09-14T01:27:00.003-04:00

I will strive to bring others together whenever I can.

Filling the Void

2011-09-13T23:03:00.001-04:00

As of the last 2 months I've been working a new job, along with new hours. I'm now a
9am - 5pm drone.

This is a massive change for me, since the dawn of time for me as wee baby I was a night person. Just ask my mother, She'd tell you I'd cry all night and the only way for me to stop was to set me down in front of the TV...

Now that I write this I wonder what I was watching? back in that era there wasn't many channels broadcasting very late... I wonder if it was Benny Hill? or The Bizarre show?
I don't know, but if that were true would explain a lot about myself.

I was quite the tardy one to my morning home period class for sleeping in... I remember one time a good friend of mine picked me up and rang outside my house to tell me he was here to give me lift and I rushed outside still getting dressed and opened the door and slipped and fell on some snow. He asked if I was ok getting back up and brushing off the snow when I said "No... I'm going back to bed I should have never woken up". Seriously I left and went back to bed.

Now I'm adjusting the body clock slowly so I can start waking up in the morning... and I hate the morning!!!!

I won't even begin to rant about how I hate mornings... But small sacrifice to pay when you get off work and its not 11pm or midnight or worse 7am.

I get to have dinner with family or my sweetness. I get to socialize with friends at a normal time and I don't have to tippie toe around the house late at night.

Since I've been working these new hours I haven't even cared to touch my xbox 360, I've been so busy with being out and about however winter is approaching. (lots of new games around the corner)

I've decided instead to pick up my guitar and blow the dust off and tune the bitch back into key and hammer out a few riffs... amazing how much you forget without practice strange enuff a few cords n riffs are still in there and won't go away.

I've also decided to catch up on reading... but I'm not gonna be reading fictional books, Don't get me wrong I'll still read comics... but I mean epics like Steven Kings Dark Tower or Darkly Dreaming Dexter series... I'll let TV do its job and kill my imagination for me and yet entertain me all at once.

I've decide to learn more about life, universe, theology and the unexplained books...

Lastly, I decided to make it a habit to write more in my blog... Some day I feel as if I have a mind racing with so much to say and other days I feel guarded and reserve and more in the observing mood rather than the sharing mood.

Writer block does tend to kick in... as someone once said to me a few years ago... I can run around the field chasing the butterfly or sit patiently and the butterfly will come sit on my shoulders.

I could always share whats on my mind on Facebook and get much more of response there. However Facebook is no Journal and this has been my touching stone for the past 7 years?

I don't care for the followers and blog hits, I just wanna look back one day when I'm old and see the story of my life.

Who knows how long this site will be around when I'm gone and what visitors will follow.

Health Warning!

2011-09-13T22:19:00.003-04:00

As of lately I've been working a lot of new jobs here and there, which in this shitty economy I should be grateful I'm working however in the past 3 years I've had 5 jobs... not fun.

But wait, there is good news... I do like the job I'm in now... I've only been there for about 2 months but they really respect each employee and we have some pretty cool perks.

I have a gym just upstairs where I go for about 30 minutes a day and just work out when I can. It's only been a month and I feel the difference and my aunt who was over the weekend noticed a difference (She's so happens to be my favorite Aunt Delia)

So, all is good in the world until one day at work I get a notice sent to me stating:

American Companies have decided tobacco smoke is dangerous to your health so smoking on company grounds will be prohibited. Effective start date in the USA is April 2012
Canada will follow soon.

Short of it is I won't be able to smoke on company property I'll have to get in my car and drive around... only after I punch out cuz I'm henceforth leaving the company property.

I should be raging mad! what right do they have to try to restrict what I smoke...

However, I'm finding the habit to be exhausting.. to my health and my fiance.
Changes have these funny ways of happening and I'm not gonna look a gift a horse in the mouth... especially if that horse smoked!

Super Hero? Or Super Unreal?

2011-09-10T20:41:00.000-04:00

Over the week I've had the pleasure of doing plenty of superhero stuff... There was the Fan Expo in Toronto that I attended, but I also had the chance to watch two documentaries about superheroes.

About real life people who are superheroes minus the super powers who dress up and patrol the streets.

This film goes on to show how Hollywood nobodies decide to dress up in costumes and walk along Hollywood Blvd and take photos with tourist for money, each with a unique story of how they became to this point in there life.

The God Experience

2011-09-05T11:15:00.003-04:00

I've started watching some great new amazing shows about the universe and all it's questions. Through the worm hole is the series with Morgan Freeman. The very first episode goes on to talk about God, (not religion) searching for signs of God with science. A study in neuroscience a doctor was able to invent a helmet which is referred to as The God Helmet.

What you do is seclude yourself for an hour in a quiet room while you wear this helmet that sends electro-magentic signals to a certain area of your brain which allows you to have this feeling of a God like presence with you.

The idea was to prove or disprove that God is something locked away within the confines of our brain. Which made me stop and think.

I won't go into the whole near death experience, I've had outside experiences in my life where I didn't have to die in order to experience a connection with God. Remembering sometime in high school I was out with four of my friends, we use to go to the local YMCA and as we were leaving the basketball court I had this what felt almost deja vu but somehow different... I had immense feeling of knowing that I could take a warped basketball and shoot it across a full court in an angled net with a one handed hook shot. I went to explain to my friends for some reason I could do this all one time and get it done... they were all " yeah right.... give a million dollars"

Sure enough I went with this strong feeling of faith knowing I could do this and as I felt it was a perfect Swoosh. Not God like enough?

Another time, I remember a few years ago I went to a friends house and took some magic mushrooms... not something I part take in all the time. We were just playing poker and having a drink or two until the shrooms kicked in. Once they did I remember feeling somewhat sick, I went lay down on the couch when I felt like once again had this outer body experience were my soul left my body or the compounds on my mind (who knows) where I was left in space... beautiful deep dark cosmos where I again felt connected to this collective where everything was at one... all mystery's to life's questions and secrets all made sense. The purpose of life was simple and obvious, Literally everything was Zen. It felt as if I had been the one all along who journey and plotted my life as if I were leaving on a trip and mapped everything out. I know drugs were involved to induce this experience so how reliable of it is it?

A friend of mine remembers her first God experience that she was out playing in the sandbox in a very young age. She remembers it being a warm sunny day feeling the sunshine on her and the joy of playing outside in nature. She remembers as we was playing her mind started to wonder all about life and started to feel as if she had so many questions that it put her mind in anxiety with just so many questions and out of nowhere a hand was felt on her shoulder and was told a word over and over... Calm. She remembers she looked back after relaxing again and having nobody there. She says that in that moment not only did she feel the calm wave of relaxation but she was tied into a collective where everything was felt with love and peace and unity in the most indescribable way.

I'm sure everyone in there own way as had there own story of how they felt a higher power in there life. an excellent book on the topic that I enjoyed was Conversations with God. How a writer one day just focuses on Questions he has in life and claims that he has this conversation with God that pens out these letters.

There is also the DMT which brings on the whole experience of a near death.

Brings on a lot more questions to what is the human mind capable of? Are we built in the image of God than therefor our minds would be our greatest tools into changing the way we know life around us?

Time will only tell....

Crazy Video's

2011-07-09T23:34:00.002-04:00

You know I just love the craziness and this brings to a video that I seen on youtube and just makes me glad I don't have one of these jobs

you might wanna take a few short fast forward jumps

Good Times?.... No, the best of times!

2011-07-09T23:25:00.003-04:00

What an amazing weekend it's been for me.

I got to catch up with my nephews and my mother as we went to Ontario place, I use to go all the time and been like 16 years or more since I've been. wow, has the place changed.... Don't think I like the changes but it was fun for the kids so all in all it was worth the trip.

Best part of it was I got to catch up with an old friend, it was great due to the fact that the fact that I miss like crazy. The saying you don't know what you have till it's gone is something you respect more as we age.

It sorta makes me ponder of another close friend whom in a years time will be moving on to England for a few years. Never the less I wish them all the best with there travels and life and really makes you enjoy the present day.

Now as the Monday approaches I begin a new job which is closer to home, more money, better benefits and best part a 9am - 5pm job... I'll finally be on a normal instead of the late night guy.

Life changing at a rapid pace, been a struggle but definitely has it's rewards

Russian Bastards

2011-06-17T02:11:00.002-04:00

As I was posting about my unknown Russian friend I hope your not this guy.

This is a true story filmed on Russian prank show (kinda like Just for laffs or Punk'd)

I was once told that the Russian Mafia makes Tony Soprano look like a girl guide scout.

Don't get me started on the Russians... I have a love / hate thing for them.

as you read below I think Russian girls are sexy but the men are like filthy used car sales men who would slit there own mothers throat.

Strange part is as evil as they can be I sometimes respect how evil they can be.. not out of fear just out of pure audacity of it all.

I won't start on the conspiracies train... if anything I'm rooting for the bad guy here to win...

anyways back to my clip... Remember this is a true story!